I mentioned a week or so back that I had finally signed up to participate in my first 5k race.
As I am continuing to train, it has become quite perplexing to me... some days I have better runs than others. I can't pin point any particular reason. But I have discovered on the days that I am really resistance to get out there, those are the days when I seem to have my best runs.
I have talked with other runners and they have the same experience. Why?
I was wondering if it had some to do with expectations that running is going to suck. I'm feeling tired, it's the last thing I want to do, and I drag my ass out there anyway. Is it that I'm expecting it to be lousy, and when it isn't, it's a pleasant surprise and I can run further and faster (well maybe further) than on a day when I didn't mind going? You know what I mean? Like when
you have a social function to go to that you don't feel like going, but when you get there you have a good time?
It is interesting how running, at least for me, is a very mental exercise. How my mind is naturally trying to stop. I have to force myself to do a physical check, when it prematurely wants me to throw in the towel. Am I winded...? Am I tired...? Am I in pain...? No, No, No.... so keep running.
Well I waited for the day when I felt neither excited or resistant to running, to try out some reverse psychology. I intentionally focuse on thoughts of how I didn't want to go, how I was going to feel, that I was too tired, well I'm sure you can see where this is heading. Maybe I could set the expectation so low that when I got out there people would mistake me for Forest Gump.
A very interesting thing happened. Nothing. It was just a regular run. Maybe the problem is that you can't fake yourself out. I can't simultaneously be Dorothy and the Man behind the Green Curtain.
I'd love to hear your thoughts...